Born in the wrong era? No. There is no wrong era.

today i came back quite late cause of rehearsal again at church.
i have come back with:

-greater esteem for seng heng as a singer
he sang in parts with ernest and it was SO SO nice! I WAS SO IMPRESSED!!

-greater esteem for stephanie as a pianist
she reminded me abit of lian sze, i don't know if their skill levels are very different, but with my limited understanding of music, she at least played with what seemed like a lot of skill...like creating the score for songs that had no piano score, things like that...

-greater fear of playing with toddlers or very young children at least(aged below 6 maybe?)
their(seng heng and stephanie's) daughter(i just realized i don't know her name) was left in the baby room at the back during rehearsal, and every now and then she came over to the window and tapped on it and i felt obliged to turn around and entertain her abit.
funny encounter, but not one that i'd like to face often.
ravi quoted g.k.c saying that "part of God's infinity can be seen in a child's propensity to exult in the monotonous".
it is quite evident especially when playing with younger children - the same thing can entertain them forever(same show, same songs, same game, same action...etc)
but i think what i felt was that i was not able to really keep her occupied and yet she tried to find some form of entertainment in me. at the same time i didn't want to seem like i gave her the cold shoulder, and so i tried to play with her, but was afraid that i might bore her.
sigh, it's not that i don't like children, it's just that, i think i can be quite the boring playmate...and so i don;t really play cause i don't want to let them down...and i think i (naturally) connect better with guys than with girls( i'm not sure though...)
i think i need to work on smiling more(and more naturally at that), and maybe my relational skills with others...
what if i ever need to help out with preteens?
*trembles*