Born in the wrong era? No. There is no wrong era.

i cannot hold on.
it feels terrible when you want to help someone but you can't.
either you aren't able to do something because of your own limitations or people expect more than what you're capable of.
this feeling of helplessness...
when you want to cheer someone up when they are down, or when you want to do something for someone, but you don't know what to do.
i find that all i can do sometimes is to try and accompany others. but it doesn't seem like enough. in fact i think it isn't.
i can only hope that others will come to realise that the only being that can help them through life is the one in complete control.
the reason for our problems has always been in oursleves.
and so the solution to our problems can never be in ourselves...

yay.long john coming toe ast point.
all hail long john!

i feel like chouji.
and like chouji, i'll continue to wait for shikamaru.

one of the most painful things someone can feel is to be be shown disregard.
to be treated like you do not matter.
to have your comments ignored.
to be shown that your interests are not at all taken into consideration.

now how can we say we want to show love when yet we continue as such?

today we had the christmas event.
did quie alot of stuff here and there.
my cuttiing skill leveled-up too.
so fun to be a chef.
hopefully later today can go and make a monster sandwich....
see how lah.
sleepy time

it's been a while since i last wrote.
i'm not very sure why.
dunno if it's because i dunno what to write about,
or because i have alot of things i want to write about but don't have the energy or don't have the motivation to write it all down.
like in jepun, there were alot of things that i could have wrote about, but i didn't.
there was a comp at the hotel that we were at so i could chat with people and stuff, but i didn't write anything here.
so weird.
things that i would have wrote about like how i went to look for the jump shop at suidobashi on my own.
or how i got squashed up like a sardine between commuters on the train at rush hour that same day.
or how i went to ueno zoo, supposedly the one that i visited when i was 2.
or how i had to face the fact that my brother and i are worlds apart on numerous counts.
or how i blew all my money on shopping.
or how two deaths occured when i was away. how the news reached me. how i felt when i heard about them.
or about those extremely talented baskers, whose performances i was so privileged to witness.
or that delicious apple pie at shijuku.
or even my lonesome trip home, and that noisy jc group that filled the plane.
i didn't even write about the things that i bought.

i didn't take too many pictures this time either.
but that's ok i guess.
somethings are fine left just as simple memories.

here i am at the free internet station in the airport again.
so it'sjust me,the sphere and God's Providence.
so exciting!
so here we go!!!

finished my first hat.
and it looks utterly terrible.
like...i'm not sure if i can even call it a hat.
now we'll just have to see if it fits mel's head.
haha

i should be in the land of the rising sun now.
but instead, i'm still here on this little red dot.
why?
cos my passport wasn't extended.
swell. safra stopped it's ica service and cmpb wasn't open yesterday.
so now i leave at 9 tonight and arrive one day later than expected.
what a joke...
it's not that big a deal to me,
but mom was pretty upset over the incident.

now everything's been settled. luggage checked in, bag packed.
contacts in good hands.
leaving with the sphere later. folks joining us on wed.
time for a big mao xian!
camera's ready.
just send it!

thanks to a much-appreciated intro by turtle,
i've been listening to, whistling and singing "Your Call" by Secondhand Serenade,
and ms lee hates it.
ha can't stand the song, my singing AND my singing of the song.
so you can imagine the pain he went through, and the glee we felt, when, at 4 a.m. in the morning, me and dong sang the song while turtle played the guitar amidst the countless bridge games we had at tcpc.
haha, it drove him crazy..
we sang it in the car just now too. he blasted his radio just to drown out our voices.
but i cannot understand why he doesn't like such a pleasant song. it's so nice...
ah well, it just such a blast to disturb him this way.

yay! managed to persuade dong to play hide and seek in The Coolest Place for Catching! thanks to some additional input from our dear mr ong...woohhoo! it's gonna be so cool...

lunched with fair lady soo li today. such a pleasant person to talk to. some exciting proposals from her about writing avenues. just need her to clear with the bosses...then i'm good to go! let's see how it goes ah.

oh, and today had a fun time diturbing the Bai Kah Club(BKC). while it is commendable that they completed a full marathon, it is also funny to see them struggle to get out of their seats. and how they would hobble around and douse their knees with yoko yoko. the best part is that when you disturb them, they can't get back at you cause they can't catch you! haha.

the moon's been mighty round the past few nights. sat night afer the weding dinner also got that same halo that i saw the last time. so fascinating! i ought to take out the snyders that wj bought and eat them while savouring this beautiful sight....
see if still got energy for that.