Born in the wrong era? No. There is no wrong era.

study hard = good grades?
no.
tyco can do well can do bad. bell curve can push up can push down. anything can happen.

good grades = good job?
no.
stragiht a's doesn't mean get good job. fail doesn't mean cant find job. jobs not based solely on what we can offer, is see what ppl want and when.

good job = good money?
no.
graduates can get low paying jobs. coffee shop uncle can earn tonnes of cash. money can be obtained by various means.

good money = stable life?
no.
you could have a recalcitrant gambler in the house. you could meet a car accient. you family member could fall ill. money can disappear overnight.

stable life = happy life?
no.
stable life can end up achieving very little. can become boring. can become sucked into maintaining stable life, that there is no life being lived.

happy life = meaningful life?
no.
meaning is not defined by the created but by the creator. happy life may satisfy us, but that is not the issue. life is more than happiness.

therefore?

fear God and keep His commandments for this is the whole duty of man.

1. swiss army knife
7. laserpointer
22. guitar tuner
26. sweater

haha

need

to

become

stronger

:(

brilliant games.
games are great fun and there are those games that are greater fun than others.
there are brilliant games around.
last time already got awesome games, and truth is, brilliant games will continue to be produced for as long as games exist. whether frequent or not is beside the point, fact is, they WILL come out.
think about the beautiful games...flower, braid, outlander, shadow of the colossus...
the smart games...portal, braid, world of goo...
the epic games...mgs, uncharted, gow, ffvii....
the fiendish games? super meat boy, demon souls, bioshock...
i've played many games in my life, and i've been sucked into various games too. sleepless nights, work undone, hours burnt, life wasted....addictions...though not really something that i'm ashamed of...
BUT
at the end of the day,
ask me to choose my favourite and it will never change.
if i could only play one game before i die, it would be a no-brainer decision.
no other game has so deeply affected me or been so deeply ingrained into my life as
Metal Gear Solid.
yes, the graphics are dated, the gameplay has been surpassed and the story and grandeur has been matched. but it won't change a thing.
all-rounded awesome games like mgs 4, unchartered 2, arkham asylum, gow 3 are great in many aspects, but i think mgs has sealed its place in my heart simply because it was the first.
MGS is SPECIAL.
special place in my heart is mgs.
it was the first game that got me into mature gaming, and the impact was great.
the experience was awesome. the atmosphere and setting of the game, the memorable characters, voice acting and lines. the compelling plot and story. the incredibly engaging gameplay, and the mature themes dealt with...
cant be topped la, no matter what comes my way.

there'll always be fun games to play, games that look better, sound better, play better, are funnier, are smarter, are more creative.
but my love for mgs doesn't boil down to just those things, it's something beyond that. something that cant be touched...

and it's the same for her too. i guess.
haha

1. swiss army knife
2. ground markers for soccer
3. ps3 controller
4. board games that people will enjoy playing
5. graphic novels
6. dyson bladeless air multiplier
7. laserpointer
8. decent looking and sounding non in-ear earphones
9. handphone
10. slippers
11. karabiner
12. belay device
13. climbing pants - acquired
14. nerf gun
15. compression gear
16. nerf gun bullets
17. round specs
18. laptop
19. blender
20. effective alarm clock
21. cool notebook/organiser
22. guitar tuner
23. portable speakers
24. ipod dock n speaekrs
25. sunglasses
26. sweater
27. titanium spork

with regards to soccer,
i don't know how to progress.
kb has been busy and so has ck and it seems like they are busy with their own thing and have no time for football.
granted.
but even so, actually in the past it also felt that way like they weren't really fully committed to the team and left me to do the organising and stuff.
if wan to just kick kick also not as fun as playing as a team
but playing as a team also requires some basic commitment and training and it seems like few are really willing to give their bit.
is it because it is not cmmunicated?
that to most, this is just a side thing?
if that is the case then it will be hard to progress to anything more than just "a bunch of guys playing football"
some don't even reply my sms.
and that kind of irks me because the least u could do is reply and let the organiser know if you are coming.
i feel quite abandoned like i'm fighting on my own.
it sometimes feels that way in church also. like you're fighting on your own.
the feeling is terrible. and others complain of wanting to leave.
like when there is very little support for the things organised yet you are given a responsibility to do and others don't really try to help you.
it is one thing to organise things for the benefit of others, but sometimes it just feels like people cant be bothered.
like organise an activity and the organiser don't even want to go.
or organise an activity and plan the dates in advance but people just go on ahead and book themselves anyway. the message is simply this: "this isn't worth my time"
honestly, that may be the case for some activities.
but then it also borders on "you aren't worth my time"
it is not always a case of this or that.
sometimes i feel that things can be accomodated. but people won't la.
i know that we should be working for God's sake.
and that it is not other's response or evaluation that we should be motivated by so much as it should be God's evaluation,
but being human, i think i have emotions and feelings and sometimes it just becomes very tiring when u do things and there is little or no support from others.
does it not boil down to the love and faithfulness of others?
yes it does i think. and sometimes it just hurts la.
i don't feel like writing anymore.

i think i'm just lonely and wish i had a close friend to talk to

here's a thought:
what if,
one day,
i meet a girl who....
likes the same shows i like
likes the same songs i like
likes the same books i like
likes the same sports i like
likes the same food i like
likes the same games i like
likes to chill
likes to explore new things
likes to consider new ideas
likes to exercise
likes to play
likes to read
likes to cook
likes to hang around me
likes to talk to me
likes to listen to me
likes to laugh at me
likes to laugh with me
likes to serve God (like really likes to)
likes my friends
likes my family
likes me.

and what if....
she's younger than me?

then how?
so is love supposed to be easy or hard?
to be happy? or something quite apart from that?

mary and max.
crouching tiger hidden dragon.
mother.
never let me go.
13 assasins.
sword of a stranger.
kings speech.
black swan.
kiten city.
rule no. 1.
the fighter.
seven samurai.
source code.