Born in the wrong era? No. There is no wrong era.

Mr Ong passed away yesterday morning.
will go down to the wake this week. i got block test but i don't care.
"death smiles at us all. all a man can do is smile back"..?
what's there to smile about!? death is not, never was and never will be natural.
yet so many people treat it like something that is "just like that".
sigh.
go down to the wake. see the boy. see the family.
won't appear more sad than i actually am. won't talk more than i need to.

i find it funny that sometimes we act like we don't want people to care about us when we actually want them to.
kinda like in msn when i put a nick that says something along the line of "go away" or "leave me be and let me die". i mean, if i really don't want people to care, i won't even bother going online ah, let alone putting a nick that will catch other's attention and prompt them to ask me what's wrong....just so i can say "nothing", or "none of your business" so that they will be prompted to probe me even more.
haha. maybe this is just a way i fill up an emptiness inside myself.
to attract attention hoping someone will bother enough to ask.
sometimes people try to poke me into being more interested in something than i actually am. i say poke because they don't do it blatantly, kinda like they try and lead me on to conclude something.
it's fun to purposely evade them and act like their plan failed. if you wanna say something, SAY IT. don't do an iago on me.
....i realise i'm also guilty of that. haha.

sometimes when a problem exists, and everybody is aware that it exists, the solution is not with knowing what to do, it's with doing it. having the courage and determination to do something, something i've yet to learn apparently.

not sure if my appetite is back yet. still not really eating well. see how loh, maybe it's just a phase that will pass eventually. hmm.