Born in the wrong era? No. There is no wrong era.

nobody said it was easy,
no one ever said it would be so hard...

feels like jc now.
i have no confidence in doing well.
just now it crossed my mind if i should sign on moe...
the bed has become increasingly attractive to me again. just like in jc.
it's a place for me to while my time away just getting lost in my thoughts.
i mean, unlike jc, i like what i'm studying and i get what the lecturers and tutors are saying,
but i don't know what i should record down,
i don't really know how or what to study
and i don't like the idea of printing out an endless stream of notes, or of reading an endless amount of pages off the net, both of which seem necessary for success.
it seems i have returned to writing again too.
possibly because the immense forlorn-stranded-helpless-nonsense-detached-lost-disconnected-wandering-hopeless-tiresome-loneliness has resurfaced again?
so writing occupies me and lying down dreaming is an escape for me.
so it's back to escapism again. haha.
i was just browsing through some old posts and i am reminded of how i felt in the past. and i realise...it's the same!
haha. i wanna run away and lead a simple life.
what about something like what ben button did? wander the globe?
that would be nice...

and then i saw something that i wrote in the past too:
"and i am quite fine with that.."
hoho my boy, you have no idea what you are writing about man....
i was stupid then and i am toopid now.

heh.
give me a chance and i'll let me see how
nothing has changed~~