Born in the wrong era? No. There is no wrong era.

walking in the rain,
i'm inclined to think there isn't that much to miss actually.
but maybe that's just cos of my current state of mind.
which may be a heightened state.
maybe spotless really is better.

ktv just now.
better than the last time when it was a little awkward...
alot of songs sang.
the reality of misslee surpassed the legend loh. exceeded my expectations. she sings very very well.
and well, yvo, expected la. haha. ktv regular. it's nice to see her enjoying herself so much though. bubbly and lively. puts a smile on my face to see her absorbed in the songs.
jo was a surprise. i knew she could sing well, but didn't realise that she would be as comfortable as she was, singing like that.
and dong...nothing to say la. in his element totally. really nothing to say.
overall enjoyable experience, especially with the quality-er singing,
but honestly, i'm just as happy to be singing(screaming) terribly out of tune with a guitar i can't play for the silly fun of it. but not everyone can take it ba.
and it's not for everyone's eyes anyway.
i liked the songs we sang just now.
even sang the chinese song of my life. haha.
english one quite unlikely ppl will sing. haha....

something i considered today,
solidity, self-awareness, self-esteem, attitude, and behaviour.

not solid, high awareness, low self-esteem, feel inadequate, behave "lowly"
not solid, low awareness, low self-esteem, want to make up for it, brag
not solid, high awareness, high self-esteem, fully accept it, humble and sincere
solid, high awareness, high self-esteem, proud, brag
solid, low awareness, low self-esteem, feel inadequate, happy with success sad with failure
solid, high awareness, high self-esteem, recognise gifts, serve and consider others before self

this was a quick thought i had, but i think can revise it. next time la.

what it would be like to make all our thoughts public....
so many things that i think, i cannot say.
so many questions that are asked, i cannot fully answer.
because there are some things that are just not for others to know..
i sometimes call it the deep darkness of my brain.
we will all never fully know what goes on in each other's mind eh...
i realise that those are the most dreaded(and hardest) questions to answer.
questions whose answer is found in the darkness.
can the questioner bear the answer? a question i think about a lot...
ah.

but on a happier note,
i found a new target le....
hehehehehe. see the sparks fly,
this busy little bee's gonna get to work le. :)
hohohohohoho.
i like this kind of thing. makes me happy. gives me something to work on.
something to occupy myself with and take my mind off other things.
a welcomed distraction.
a welcomedistraction. heh.
i'm the master schemer la. i'd hate to be an enemy of myself.