Born in the wrong era? No. There is no wrong era.

i don't know how to solve this whole thing.
it's very frustrating.
i struggle with it all the time. i struggled with it just now. i'll struggle with it tmr. i struggled with it yesterday. i'll struggle with it next week. i'll struggle with it during holidays. i'll struggle with it overseas. especially overseas. i'll struggle with it every other day.
it's always on my mind, unless i'm being distracted.
i think of what might make things better, but i know those scenarios are impossible.
and nothing is helping to make those scenarios possible.
so if that's the case, i don't see how things can improve.
maybe i'm just hoping that i will forget with time.
maybe i will.
but i seriously doubt it.
SERIOUSLY.
unless i get alzheimers or parkinsons or some mentally degenerative condition. or amnesia. or i die.
otherwise this will stick with me until the day i die.
i think.
or am i overthinking.
unlikely.
i don't even know how long i will live.
maybe i will die soon.
but what if i don't.
what if the answer is very simple and i just need a big hit on the head with it to realise it.
please hit me.
haiz
HAIZ.