Born in the wrong era? No. There is no wrong era.

tired
many things weighing down on me
i feel heavy and lethargic
today i really really didn't feel like doing anything
i just wanted to hang around
to me it feels like everybody is busy with their own thing and there is no interconnectedness or whatever or whatever.
there is no vibrancy of life or what lah
POOOOOI. pooi pooi pooi pooi.
i don't feel the working together towards a goal or a willingness or interest in each other.
it feels alienating
like i'm all alone
apart from the class on sunday there really isn't much interaction with anybody else sometimes. i look forward to seeing the tfc students more and more each week.
lame la
it makes me wonder loh if things are better elsewhere
but that's lame la. if nothing else i wan to keep up with the class on sunday.
if nothing else.
maybe i am too idealistic sometimes.
so as a result when things turn out otherwise i am more and more frustrated.
frustrated is the right word.
i am quite frustrated with various things ba
i am ranting
sometimes it feels like people are doing what they wan
and i don't get to do waht i wan
or whatever like i have to kio sai lidat
cos nobody else is willing to do and because i feel bad if i say no so i say yes to everything and as a result it just frustrates me when i see people doing things that i feel is unfair to others who sacrifice.
aiyah
i live a comfortable life la
i always slack la
i'm only interested in playing la
i really ought to grow up la.
grow up la.