Born in the wrong era? No. There is no wrong era.

with regards to soccer,
i don't know how to progress.
kb has been busy and so has ck and it seems like they are busy with their own thing and have no time for football.
granted.
but even so, actually in the past it also felt that way like they weren't really fully committed to the team and left me to do the organising and stuff.
if wan to just kick kick also not as fun as playing as a team
but playing as a team also requires some basic commitment and training and it seems like few are really willing to give their bit.
is it because it is not cmmunicated?
that to most, this is just a side thing?
if that is the case then it will be hard to progress to anything more than just "a bunch of guys playing football"
some don't even reply my sms.
and that kind of irks me because the least u could do is reply and let the organiser know if you are coming.
i feel quite abandoned like i'm fighting on my own.
it sometimes feels that way in church also. like you're fighting on your own.
the feeling is terrible. and others complain of wanting to leave.
like when there is very little support for the things organised yet you are given a responsibility to do and others don't really try to help you.
it is one thing to organise things for the benefit of others, but sometimes it just feels like people cant be bothered.
like organise an activity and the organiser don't even want to go.
or organise an activity and plan the dates in advance but people just go on ahead and book themselves anyway. the message is simply this: "this isn't worth my time"
honestly, that may be the case for some activities.
but then it also borders on "you aren't worth my time"
it is not always a case of this or that.
sometimes i feel that things can be accomodated. but people won't la.
i know that we should be working for God's sake.
and that it is not other's response or evaluation that we should be motivated by so much as it should be God's evaluation,
but being human, i think i have emotions and feelings and sometimes it just becomes very tiring when u do things and there is little or no support from others.
does it not boil down to the love and faithfulness of others?
yes it does i think. and sometimes it just hurts la.
i don't feel like writing anymore.